Hey all and thanks for dropping by
I hope your middle of the week is shaping up nicely and that the upcoming weekend looks even nicer!
And speaking of nice, I had a great talk with an old friend today and as we were chatting about where our lives had taken us, I was surprised to learn that she feels like her life is just now starting to blossom, at the age of 45. She finally feels like she’s got a grasp on who she is and where she wants to go in the coming years. This kind of surprised me ‘cause I always felt she had a firm grasp on where her life had taken her. I felt that she was always in control of her path and that if anyone wasn’t sure of where they were going it was me!
Truth be told, at 54 I’m still figuring out where I want to be in this wild vortex we call life. Some days I have more than a general idea, and then the next day will throw me for a loop and I’m back to questioning my path (although, my walking along the less traveled path of simplicity has never been a question in my mind!)
Now, don’t get me wrong, I am quite happy where I am and with who I am, but that doesn’t stop me from feeling a tad unsettled at times. This unsettling however, might be a good thing as it keeps me on my toes as it were. It allows me to constantly review my life choices, to reflect on my current existence so that I can follow a path that I truly want to be on. It allows me to – in essence – be free.
When I was a young lad in my early teens, I couldn’t wait until I was 35. That age seemed to be the magic number where all my goals, dreams and ambitions would finally marry nicely together. There would be no questioning, no need for further reflection, I would have, as they say, arrived! I knew I wanted to be a rock star (no…seriously!), and I knew how to attain that “simple” achievement.
The problem was that I also had to answer to others. My mom, friends, school teachers, my sister, society. My life was not my own…and I was cool with that. This however, resulted in my taking a very different path than I originally had planned. Well as much planning as a 16 year old boy could logistically work out.
Flash forward to my twenties where I still had the dream of being a rock star – kind of. Actually, by then I had gotten a decent job and had been working for some time since high school, having decided to skip college for the boardroom…or at least…delivering mail to the boardroom.
Slowly, the rock star/musician dream faded almost without me realizing it and as I entered my thirties, I found a new love, Sociology and went down that path by first acquiring a BA in that field, then an MA. And while I loved the discipline, I was vaguely discontent.
My forties found me back in the arms of my first love, music, as I began to assemble my playing skills by practicing and playing in bands again, something I hadn’t done for a long, long time!
By this time I was my own man and vowed to follow my youthful dreams…which I have since been doing. Music is back in my life big time. It is how I make my living – for the most part - and I’ll be releasing my debut CD before the end of this year 2015. At my age I may not be realizing my early passions of being a rock-star, but I am following my dream of being a working musician…and that’s good enough for me
So, when I ask myself “am I there yet”, I can contently nod “almost”.
That being said, who really knows what’s around the corner or further down the block of life. I can only do what I can do to ensure some reasonably expected outcome, the rest as they say, is out of my hands. The only difference in this stage of my life is that I am more in control of my life than I’ve ever been and that my friends’ is a wonderful feeling. It’s also a little scary given that I now truly understand that the only one responsible for my life is me!
I guess it’s always been that way throughout the past forty years or so, yet for some reason it’s only now that I truly feel the causality of my own actions independent of others. Thankfully as I get older, the only person I want to please on a grand scale is me. While my younger years were centered around pleasing others, the coming years will be all about what I need…with most likely more than the occasional “helping thy neighbor” thrown in for good measure
So…are you there yet?
Has your life gone according to plan or have there been detours along the way?
I’d like to hear your thoughts on this topic so please continue the conversation down below in the comments section. Your thoughts are greatly appreciated
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Take care and all the best.
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